The Date is Set!

Dr. Superina's office called about a date.  We are so excited (and nervous) to have a date scheduled.Macy's 1st surgery will be on May 18th.  We will travel to Chicago on May 17th for all of her pre-op work.  We do not have an exact date of her 2nd surgery since it all depends on how she is doing with the first one, and what her pressures look like.  It will be within the few days following the first one. 

So I have spent the last few days making arrangements with the Ronald McDonald house for a month long stay, touching base with my administrators at work, and contacting Macy's teachers and school counselor.  Macy and I will miss the last 7 days of school.  People keep telling me not to worry about school, but I do.  I am working really hard at trying to get things put into order so I can leave without worry.  Plus, I have an amazing instructional assistant in my classroom and an amazing team! 

This brings on a whole new world for our family.  The majority of Macy's surgeries have been done before McKenna was born.  So surgery arrangements never had to be schedule around or affected by another child who is in school and active in sports.  With the help of our parents and some friends, I think we will have every things covered.  McKenna and Macy will be apart for about 2 weeks, so I worry about them since they have never been apart longer than 1 night.  I am so scared about McKenna worrying about her sister.  I am also worried about McKenna feeling abandoned by me since I will be with Macy the entire time.  I worry about missing McKenna's first ever field day, and her first ever last day of school.  Will she resent me for missing these things?  I don't know!  This weighs heavily on my heart.

Amongst those things I will miss for her, I will also miss celebrating my 13th anniversary with my husband.  Therefore, I am doing the very best I can to make this one of the positive things about this time for McKenna.  I showed her the calendar and talked about some of the dates, and that how when Daddy and I are gone, Grandma and Grandpa will be with her, and that they have lots of fun things planned.  Jeremy will only be gone or the first 5 or 6 days.So I told her that I needed her help in a big way!  She has to step in and be Daddy's date for our anniversary dinner.  She has already decided she is taking him to Texas Roadhouse (lol), and is beyond excited! 
Also, on her last day of school, Daddy will be taking her out to celebrate with a special treat.  I pray that she looks at this time as a fun, special time.  I pray she does not get angry with me for missing these special events in her life.  I am going to try the best that I can to be there for her while being so far away.


And then there is the worry for Macy.  I can't even begin to go into the worry and concern I feel for her.  It absolutely breaks my heart to see her face another surgery.  Surgeries 22 and 23 to be exact. I can sense her concern for the unknown.  I also see the sadness she is experiencing for missing her own field day, and her own last day of school.  It saddens her!  I don't blame her.  I made a "Flat Macy" in hopes that her class can take her with them on their last few days of school adventures.   

Many of you know that I am a semi-private person.  I say that because I am much better at talking about these things behind a computer screen because I become so emotional when I have to talk about it aloud.  So I can't promise I won't have an explosion of tears if you ask me about it in the next month.  I hear a lot that I am so strong, but I don't always feel like it.  I am so scared for so many reasons!  I know that The Lord is our protector, and he will carry us through this journey.  I also know that this will bring many great changes for Macy in her life, and we are so blessed to have this opportunity!

 

All we ask at this time is for prayers!  Prayers for every person in our family because we all need them for different reasons.  Mainly though, we need prayers for Macy!  Please, please pray for our little miracle!