We Are Home!

Home was calling Macy's name, and she is so happy to be home!  We are praying that Macy continues to recover at home, and we can all start to heal from this, physically and emotionally.  The emotional healing is going to take a lot longer for all of us than we thought.  We are understandably still on edge, and we are all worried about a recurrence of the bleeding.  We are really trying to stay close to home, and have a plan put into place if need be. 

She was discharged with a few new medications, putting her up to 10 meds in the a.m. and 6 meds in the p.m.  Our current plan for follow-up has changed a little from my previous post.  Our plan is to return in 4 weeks for another scope.  If everything looks good she will be outpatient and we will go home that day.  If any banding is needed, she will spend the night and be discharged the next day.  We are not sure about the plan following that, but she might possibly have another scope between then and March.  In March she will have the big liver surgery, the Rex Shunt. 

Please continue to send your prayers this way.  Please pray for Macy's physical and emotional healing.  Please pray that the banding surgery done on Friday keeps her esophageal varices under control, and she is safe.  Please pray for McKenna.  We try our best to always make her feel our focus and commitment to her as we also try to focus on the health of Macy, but in all honesty I know we have flaws in our methods. Please pray for Jeremy.  He is back at work, but understandably worried while he is away.  Please pray for me.  As most mothers do, I don't feel worthy of anyone's focus when my children and family require it to.  I want their prayers to be first, however I really need them this time.  I am not handling this well at all.  I am told all the time that I am such a good mother, so strong, and just like Wonder Woman.  I try to live up to those comments and typically do a good job at just moving on and keeping a focus on our goals. I'm not able to do that yet.  I am breaking down and losing it when I talk to my mom on the phone, or simply talking with Jeremy at home.  I have so many fears, so many questions, and so much that I keep praying about.  I am not sure what exactly I need right now, but I know for sure that I need prayers.